Past Memories

Appreciate life...

2012-02-12T06:34:00.000-08:00

Disciple ask Master: " Can you elaborate why you said human race is strange?"

Master reply:

" They are overly eager to grow up, rushing themselves prematurely to maturity."

" Then they lament that they have no childhood."

" They give up their health to pursue money."

" Shortly after, they try to use money to regain their health."

" They are constantly worrying about their future, yet fail to appreciate what they are currently blessed with."

" Therefore, they are living neither in their present or future."

" They live life like they will never die, yet when they are about die, they then feel like they have never lived before."

Trees

2012-01-25T23:31:00.000-08:00

Take some time to read this story. I thought it is noobcake story but it turn out to be a meaningful one.

A long time ago, there was a huge apple tree. A little boy loved to come and play around it everyday. He climbed to the treetop, ate the apples, took a nap under the shadow.. he loved the tree and the tree loved to play with him. Time went by.. the little boy had grown up and he no longer played around the tree every day.

One day, the boy came back to the tree and he looked sad. ‘Come and play with me’ the tree asked the boy. ‘I am no longer a kid, I do not play around trees any more’ the boy replied. ‘I want toys. I need money to buy them.’ ‘Sorry, but I do not have money.. but you can pick all my apples and sell them. So, you will have money.’ The boy was so excited. He grabbed all the apples on the tree and left happily. The boy never came back after he picked the apples. The tree was sad.

One day, the boy who now turned into a man returned and the tree was excited ‘Come and play with me’ the tree said. ‘I do not have time to play. I have to work for my family. We need a house for shelter. Can you help me?” Sorry, but I do not have any house. But you can chop off my branches to build your house.’ So the man cut all the branches of the tree and left happily. The tree was glad to see him happy but the man never came back since then. The tree was again lonely and sad.

One hot summer day, the man returned and the tree was delighted. ‘Come and play with me!’ the tree said. ‘I am getting old. I want to go sailing to relax myself. Can you give me a boat?’ said the man. ‘Use my trunk to build your boat. You can sail far away and be happy.’ So the man cut the tree trunk to make a boat. He went sailing and never showed up for a long time.

Finally, the man returned after many years. ‘Sorry, my boy. But I do not have anything for you anymore. No more apples for you’ the tree said. ‘No problem, I do not have any teeth to bite’ the man replied. ‘No more trunk for you to climb on’ the tree said. ‘I am too old for that now’ the man said. ‘I really cannot give you anything.. the only thing left is my dying roots’ the tree said with tears. ‘I do not need much now, just a place to rest. I am tired after all these years’ the man replied. ‘Good! Old tree roots are the best place to lean on and rest, Come, come sit down with me and rest.’ The man sat down and the tree was glad and smiled with tears..

--The tree is like our parents. When we were young, we loved to play with our Mum and Dad.. When we grow up, we leave them.. only come to them when we need something or when we are in trouble. No matter what, parents will always be there and give everything they could just to make you happy. You may think the boy is cruel to the tree, but that is how all of us treat our parents. Appreciate all they do for u before it’s too late. Love your parents, no matter where they are.

JFL

2011-12-29T21:17:00.001-08:00

Like what I said before.. Attitude

2011-12-27T08:31:00.000-08:00

Setting New Year Resolution For 2012

2011-12-26T08:03:00.000-08:00

You know why you should set a new year resolution for yourself?

There are many reasons for it like setting a goal, so you can work towards to. Something that you can look back at what you have done for this year. It can be a kind of motivation.

And there are some things that I found at wikipedia: Men achieved their goal 22% more often when they engaged in goal setting, (a system where small measurable goals are being set; such as, a pound a week, instead of saying "lose weight"), while women succeeded 10% more when they made their goals public and got support from their friends

For the year 2012, the top 5 resolutions, as identified by a SlideShare survey are:

Be financially-savvy
Read at least one book per month
Eat properly
Get enough sleep
Keep a journal of awesome moments

Woah. All these are exactly what I wanna do for the new year.

So yeah, let's set it now on my own with specific goals:

Save 2 bucks per day
Sleep at 11pm-12am
Read at least one book per month, every free moments. And every Saturday and Sunday morning. For 1 hr
Less game time, only 2 hours and less for each day.
Keep a journal of awesome moments
Bike license
Taiwan Trip

2011-12-25T10:56:00.000-08:00

2011-12-18T02:05:00.001-08:00

Positive positive

2011-12-17T10:31:00.000-08:00

NS have to chiong sua, go for officer, cause it helps in your resume.
Remember what kor kor said,
Imagine a swimming pool, it's length is 50m.
At some point of time, you are facing difficulties andYou have swim half of it, which is 25m, and yet if you are giving up, you will have to swim another 25m too.

So might as well just swim finish the another 25m since it is the same.
It is the same as life,

You know the more things you that you know you can do, the motivated you are. The more you will find life is more interesting. The more positive you are. I guess that is how you keep yourself positive. Don't think about bad stuff.

I think sometimes people are negative thinking is because they don't know what they should do, I guess to help them is just telling them what you know, it could be a simple stuff to do, but when you are thinking negatively, you actually forgotten the most simplest stuff that you should do.

So Wenda, JUST CHIONG SUA FOR THIS NS!

Yeah man.

I also remembered clearly that my brother want me to take PHANTOM, can you imagine? He usually don't want me to do this kind of stuff one, cause what I know bike is dangerous and he don't want me to get a bike. But now, he want me to get a bike. Phantom, omg I love it, because I like harley davidson style.

Now I have to keep my mind always clear, things are always not finalized.

I do have to keep up my physical. I need to always keep myself fit. It is not a period thing. It is a always thing.

One more thing, Korkor actually tell me that, having a car is like having legs. It is important to have license.

Reality?

2011-12-17T09:51:00.000-08:00

Motivation

2011-12-17T09:35:00.000-08:00

Attitude

2011-12-10T07:09:00.001-08:00

Attitude to life is important. Having a good attitude will bring you far in life...

I feel that some of the things fall under attitude, that's why I wanna share this with you all.

1. Learn from mistakes.

2. Plan your path

3. Listen to people

I gonna be like this in future

2011-12-10T07:09:00.000-08:00

2011-12-06T10:29:00.001-08:00

Now it is not about building for Poly, it is building up as a person, the whole person, image...

Now I have to pick up reading habits.. read some good books to improve my reading and writing skills.

During my Ns days, I have to read and read to keep my brain working and don't let it rot. Must keep my mind think creative and i can continue to study for uni.

2011-11-06T01:17:00.001-07:00

A woman came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find her 5-year old son waiting for her at the door.

SON: 'Mummy, may I ask you a question?'

MUM: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the woman.

SON: 'Mummy, how much do you make an hour?'

MUM: 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?' the woman said angrily.

SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'

MUM: 'If you must know, I make $20 an hour.'

SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.

SON: "Mummy, may I please borrow $5?"

The mother was furious, 'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolities.'

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door...

The woman sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?

After about an hour or so, the woman had calmed down, and started to think:

Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $5 and he really didn't ask for money very often.The woman went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.

'
Are you asleep, son?' She asked.

'No Mummy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.

'
I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the woman. 'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $5 you asked for.'

The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you Mummy!' he yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.

The woman saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.

The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his mother.

'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the mother grumbled.

'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied.

'Mummy, I have $20 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.'

The mother was crushed. She put her arms around her little son, and she begged for his forgiveness.

It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts. Do remember to share that $20 worth of your time with someone you love ♥

Another inspiring story

2011-10-26T10:10:00.001-07:00

One day, a rich dad took his son on a trip. Wanted to show him how poor someone can be. They spent time on the farm of a poor family. On the way home, dad asked, "Did you see how poor they are? What did you learn?".

Son said, "We have one dog, they have four, we have pool, they have rivers, we have lanterns at night, they have stars, we buy foods, they grow theirs, we have walls to protect us, they have friends, we have encyclopedias, they have Bible." Then they headed, "Thanks dad for showing me how poor we are.."

【 MORAL LESSON: 】It's not about money that make us rich, it's about simplicity of having God in our lives. ❤

2011-10-13T10:59:00.001-07:00

A CHAT WITH JESUS CHRIST...

Jesus: Hello. Did you call me?

Man: Called you? No.... Who is this?

Jesus: This is Jesus. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.

Man: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.

Jesus: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.

Man: Don’t know. But I can’t find free time. Life has become hectic. It’s rush hour all the time.

Jesus: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.

Man: I understand. But I still can’t figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.

Jesus: Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.

Man: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?

Jesus: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.

Man: why are we then constantly unhappy?

Jesus: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That’s why you are not happy.

Man: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?

Jesus: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.

Man: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty.

Jesus: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.

Man: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?

Jesus: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don’t suffer. With that experience their life become better not bitter.

Man: You mean to say such experience is useful?

Jesus: Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

Man: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can’t we be free from problems?

Jesus: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons (to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.

Man: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don’t know where we are heading.

Jesus: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.

Man: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?

Jesus: Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.

Man: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?

Jesus: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.

Man: What surprises you about people?

Jesus: When they suffer they ask, “Why me?" When they prosper, they never ask “Why me” Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.

Man: Sometimes I ask, who I am, why am I here. I can’t get the answer.

Jesus: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.

Man: How can I get the best out of life?

Jesus: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

Man: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.

Jesus: There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.

Man: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the day with a new sense of inspiration.

Jesus: Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don’t believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.

Man: Thank you so much.

Jesus: You are always welcome. Have a good day my friend. "Always remember, God's Word is the Word for YOU ."

Himss Conference 2011

2011-10-11T10:02:00.001-07:00

Me at Himss Conference Melbourne.

Handsome anot? :D

2011-10-07T10:17:00.000-07:00

This is sex. I wanna get this new obsession. I find it really cool and recently I fall in love in this kind of shades...

I always wanna get this man.

HAHAHA I am back to blogging!

2011-10-04T12:12:00.000-07:00

First thing that I really want to say is that I have read through my past posts. I find it kinda embarrassing and want to delete them. But I think that I shouldn't, cause they are my past, all I can do is to just laugh it off and move on.

I been really very isolated to the world, but I keep having this thoughts behind my head that I had to do well again, I cannot be so slack and so anti-social. I have learnt that if I want to my current life to change, I have to change myself, because it is my actions that causing the things around me.

I learn to be more encouraging, this is one of the good point I have in the past, however, I stopped it because there was once my gf prefer to be comforting than encouraging. You know when you love somebody so much, you would do what they likes. Yeah that's what I did.

I not saying my gf is the cause of this, it is me who is the cause. I chose to be like this. I chose to walk this way.

I have learnt that I cannot be like a girl, I cannot stay my life open only to gf. Open to one person only is not good, it only made yourself more anti-social and more reliant on your gf.

My dear gf, if you are reading this, once again I am not making you are wrong. Listen to me first, I am sharing my experience and learning during this journey. It is not good to close all the doors and open to one person only, I know you don't want me to do this and this is not your intention, but because I am too extreme already, when I know I cannot talk to girls, I just close all the doors. I don't do initiative in chatting, even with guys. I also don't want you to be like me, that's why I need to give you freedom to talking to people.

As always I need to be holistic, I need to step back and look the picture. I need to give constructive feedbacks. Positive comments. Understanding words. Be mature.

I was thinking, the man who have been silence for so many days, have the most words to say.

Yes it is going to be a new semester. The last semester in my rp life. I am going to move on to next stage soon le, National Service. Yeah man, I gonna miss rp life. So much freedom, you can do whatever you like, not really that stress.

Always do with a good reason in your heart.

I realized that if you focus on the virtue that you want, you have it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=05VLY8XvZmk&NR=1

This parents is more of respecting to people. That's why they are very polite people.

I have to know what I want to be. I need to write them down, so I know clearly what I really want.

Yeah, this sound stupid, I already what age le still figuring out myself. But it is always never too late.

-Polite

-Trust (Giving people for them to trust you)

-Be nice (Believe in everybody have a kind heart, it is just a matter of time they show you. Be nice to everybody, they will naturally show you their kind heart)

-Be sincere (Mean your words)

-Be concern (Knowing your gf life, what she is facing in school, is she doing good. If she is facing problems in school, encourage her in her next day, telling her that what she can do. If she is doing good in school, be proud of it. This applies to my mum too, ask her how is her business. My brother too.)

Cool story

2011-10-04T02:15:00.001-07:00

An Indian man walks into the New York City bank
and asks for the loan officer. He tells the Loan Officer that he was going to India
for some business for 2 weeks and needs to
borrow $5,000. The Loan Officer tells him that the bank will need
Some form of security for the loan. So the Indian man hands over the keys and the
documents of the new Ferrari car parked on the
street in front of the bank. The loan officer consults the president of the bank,
Produces all the required items and everything
check out to be OK. The loan officer agrees to accept the car as a
security for the loan. The bank president and the Loan Officer had a
good laugh at the Indian
For keeping a $750,000 Ferrari as a security and
taking only $5,000 has a loan. An employee of the bank then drives the Ferrari
Into the banks underground garage and parks it
there. Two weeks later the Indian returns and pays
$5000 and the interest which comes to it $15.41. Seeing this, loan officer says, “Sir, we are very happy to have your business
And this transaction has worked out very nicely,
but we are a little puzzled.
While you are away, we checked you out and
Found out that you were a multi millionaire. What puzzled us was why would you bother to
borrow $5000?” The Indian replies
"Where else in the New York City can I park my
car for 2 weeks and
For only $15.41 and expect it to be there when I
return".
This is a true incident and the Indian is none other than...

2011-03-26T08:56:00.000-07:00

They say that "make alot of mistakes while you are still young. Make as many mistakes and learn from them. You will grow..."

But now I made mistakes in my r/s, I felt so sorry for my gf... Made her suffered so much. I am sorry... I wished that I could have been through many r/s before and have alot of experiences, so I could have treat you better...

I got nothing, I have many weakness, I am imperfect... but one thing I have is "Try"...

No matter how bad the situation is, I will try...

"Like what they say, if you never try you never know..."

2011-02-16T08:09:00.000-08:00

I need a plan or idea or something that can keep my mind keep twist and rotate.. squeeze out some brain juice, that can get more creative idea out of my brain!

I fucking need a plan... i need to write down my ideas somewhere!

2011-02-16T07:49:00.001-08:00

Gahhhh... why it is happening again?

Why do I feel there is a heavy load in my heart?

I feel like shouting... but I dunno where to shout!

There are times that i want to be emo, do my own stuff...

There are times that i want to interact and make people laugh...

but now, it's like i got the chance to emo and do my own stuff but i wanna go out and interact!!

Why i want to interact is because i want to get myself back on track again...

Why do i keep falling off the track?

I REALLY WANT TO SCREAM MY LUNGS OUT!!

It felt so heavy inside...

Fuck my negative shits....

I need something to lift off my weights!

2011-02-08T07:03:00.000-08:00

Friends

2011-01-20T08:58:00.000-08:00

as time goes by, as i grow older...

time seems to be not enough for me...

as i grow older, i have many things to do in mind...

as i grow older, i need to do many things...

at this point of stage of my life... i think that i can't be like before, i can't make out time for my friends le...

if there are my true friends, i know they will be still best friend with me even though we never meet or chat for long time.. cause we know in our heart we are still close...

i know, i can't have many good friends now.. i only can keep some, but it's okay for me.

A few good/best friend is enough le...

i can't entertain those who think i changed just because that i never chat with them or interact with them...

my good/best friends.. i know they stay with me even if i never meet them for long time...

to say the truth, i miss all of you..

in the near future, i will & must ask you all out for tau huey and some ketchup time!

2011-01-17T09:55:00.001-08:00

"It takes less time to do things right than to explain why you did it wrong." ~ Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

2011-01-12T09:10:00.000-08:00

I know i am trying hard for you...

It have been awhile i had try so hard again....

now i understand, why i feel i didn't have the feeling for trying so hard for studies...

i know where it goes already... cause i am trying for you

2010-12-10T09:15:00.000-08:00

I am sorry i lie to you... my words are jokes, are lies...

but they are also my truthful words...

My truthful are being wrapped up by jokes and lies..

you cannot believe my words, you have to feel my words...

that is the only way to trust me...

2010-11-20T11:30:00.000-08:00

Yay, i am glad that i back on track again...

track again means like i always do in the past, Learn from the experience, evaluate and the interest for learning more things...

Life is full of many many things to learn, it is no-limits. There are too much to learn...

i should be like Cache( Inside the CPU, that keeps processor busy)

after two weeks of break from canoe, i am able to think better le...

it's time to settle down...

i had enough fun, need to start doing some REAL work.

I wanna do like doing this kind of reflection, learning during every night...

Every morning set off to do the things that i wanna do. With an objective in mind and set off!

K, its late.. i wanna sleep

Till more in future

Words that give a special meaning to it

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PLZxJZ70MQ4

Note to Self:

~ Don't forget to have fun after you do need-to-be-done

2010-10-03T08:42:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAH!!!

wa lao my pose is damn funny la...

when i smile too wide, my eyes will be damn small :(

but i like about my smile :D

2010-10-02T06:04:00.000-07:00

Li Sheng Jie

I feel that every singers got their own style..

The lyrics the song that they sing is what they feel about love...

Li sheng jie song is about rejected by love...

I believe that there are people do feel the same way as li sheng jie feel too...

你想要的

我却不能够给你我全部

我能给的

却又不是你想要拥有的

我们不适合也不想认输

好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭

你常解释这样的一切都只是开始

我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束...

Sincerity

2010-10-01T07:22:00.000-07:00

I guess my job is done.

Go!

You are free now.

I guess this is my last time.

I should have known, you never mean to come back my life.

This is what you need. You got it already.

I guess it is my turn now.

It is my will and power to release it. Don't come back and find me again.

It never mean to be.

As I grow to understand life less and less, I learn to love it more and more...

2010-09-07T09:55:00.001-07:00

Tmr is my exam, but i am here blogging...

cause i think i could be able to fork out some time out for some reflection...

yeah, i felt that i becoming less and less immature...

i seem to lost part of handling of life situation, i felt that this is missing...

somehow i started to learn how to love...

i should get back on track again...

it's time, but i keep forgetting and lost my track again.. my vision of what is ahead of me

i just scroll through my blog and saw the diary post again...

it was a post that i written before i get my scholarship, it was some that have to be done after i get my scholarship but i forgotten about it...

then it lead me to my another goal which the designing of my home...

i should go too far out again...

must always remember to keep a balance of everything in life...

i must keep a personal time for myself to do my own stuff...

i guess i need a timetable to tell me what do to do...

cause time management is something that i have conquer yet...

and yes, tmr i going to conquer it..

is not that i am procasinating.. is because now is really very late already and i going to sleep now ...

Night peeps :D

~Most of the shadows of this life are caused by our standing in our own sunshine.

As I grow to understand life less and less, I learn to love it more and more...

2010-09-07T09:55:00.000-07:00

Tmr is my exam, but i am here blogging...

cause i think i could be able to fork out some time out for some reflection...

yeah, i felt that i becoming less and less immature...

i seem to lost part of handling of life situation, i felt that this is missing...

somehow i started to learn how to love...

i should get back on track again...

it's time, but i keep forgetting and lost my track again.. my vision of what is ahead of me

i just scroll through my blog and saw the diary post again...

it was a post that i written before i get my scholarship, it was some that have to be done after i get my scholarship but i forgotten about it...

then it lead me to my another goal which the designing of my home...

i should go too far out again...

must always remember to keep a balance of everything in life...

i must keep a personal time for myself to do my own stuff...

i guess i need a timetable to tell me what do to do...

cause time management is something that i have conquer yet...

and yes, tmr i going to conquer it..

is not that i am procasinating.. is because now is really very late already and i going to sleep now ...

Night peeps :D

2010-08-19T08:45:00.000-07:00

i want to style like tribe style... like the friendship band, look out for tribe feeling..

(research on tribe style)

i also want to decorate my room.. i want to google the interior design or go around the tumblr and get some ideas and exploration for what i wanna do for my room...

maybe will require to move the cupboards, take out all the clothes.. then paint the room with lime green/yellow(sunshine beach)/ blue(relaxing beach feel)..

then

i need speakers like kunze house .. can play those kind of slow melody songs or club...
i need to buy the aroma.. aromatherapy

those kind of pots, get from daiso? then get those perfume from bodyshop :D

maybe can do ppt on having pictures, and write down the ideas and extraction from the picture of what i can observe..

or i can do a portfolio of how i get from simple room into the room that i want :D...

like do those of art and craft thingy( O' level), got observation, researchs, modifications...

then layout.. final...

i wanna buy harddisk to

maybe each day i take picture of the process...

this may seem like a big project, because it is my own world, one man working... even though i am working only just one room...

maybe everything is too many things to do.. but i believe, i do by little by little, each day accumulated, it will be done :)

rather than never start at all..

maybe can buy beanbags to store all the black plastic bags which contains clothes..

hoho, photography section... time for learning how to take good photos(Tips from Gusti: learn how to see the light of how the professional see, where is the lighting of the angle...)

http://www.flickr.com/photos/jenniferstuartdesign/sets/72157608800717990/
maybe i can try learn from here...

can check out this place to live...

http://prettyspace.tumblr.com/page/13

http://sweethomestyle.tumblr.com/page/6

this two website is where i get my ideas for decorating the houses from...
i can try to draw an interior design, like the map for how designers do...
hahaha can learn some skills... just gooogle!

remember what i told myself...

i actually said that i want to be a athlete

be a athlete

being a athlete must be very disciple as in they throw away their rubbish after eating finish...
being a athlete must always keep trying... beat their own records... beat other people records... like what happen at YOV, the south africa athletes...

Forcing

2010-08-09T21:43:00.000-07:00

i guess i reach to the point of life again...

where everything seem to be failing again...

why do i keep forcing?

things just don't work well....

not going smoothly for me...

i guess i have to step back again...

work things out slowly...

don't force it again...

control myself...

Dedicated to my beloved brother, Er kor

2010-07-30T10:23:00.000-07:00

Tonight was the night..

cause i found motivations...

i learnt that it is very important to have goals...

i need to settle my goals as soon as possible...

yeah, there is a need for time goal.. meaning by this date, i need to achieve something...

there are somethings i need to remind myself, i hafta tell myself during every training, i need to tell myself this : "Don't give up, this little more make a difference, just piang alittle more, it adds on...

i need to visualize every time before training, and prepare myself what am i going to do next...

i can't go on aimlessly, need to focus every move i takes....

i need to work with my iphone closely now, setting alarms and notes to tell myself and remind again.. for example " ok wenda, next is to visualize for the water training... or wenda prepare yourself, remember how it really works... or do financial planning"...

Talking about planning, in the book of "Art of War"... one of the most important thing to do, is to plan. Plan.

Remember wenda, Vision with action is just a dream, Action with Vision is just wasting time...

7 goals are important, plan well for each goals...

Fulfill and achieve alittle, in time to come, you have do alittle by little and make a difference.. you realized you have done something and achieved something.. this is what i told eileen goh...

Today also the day, my brother came from France after 4 months. I heard from him that this will be the last time he is gonna to come back... after that it will be like 15 months more... i really want to tell him how much i love him...

i realized and know, the most beloved ones... you never express how much your feelings to them, because in your heart... you love them so much, you feel so close to them... you feel afraid and shy to tell them how much you love them... if my brother is reading this, i really want him to know that... even though i hardly tell you how much i love you... but i really appreciate everything that you have done for the family, despite so many things that is very hard to handle in life... you are indeed the strongest brother i ever seen...

Even i never tell you how much i love you, but my tears always fall... whenever i think of you, my heart would break and i will break down and cry... cause you are the strongest person with many many sad things in his heart...

do you know how much i missed you? i always looking to every moment when somebody open the door, i always wish it was you... but everytime i know it is not you...

i wanna make a wish every night at 11:11, i wish it was you who open the door...

really come back in one piece... God i please you... please make sure my brother come back in one piece, that is all i wish for... :'''''''''(

i learnt one thing from you... no matter what, don't fall, stand up again even though it is hard...

please focus and don't look back when you decide to move...

you are really grown up when you went to france, you go there, you know what you want you know what you have to do... cannot be weakling and give up halfway... cause you don't want to disappoint everybody...

Don't worry brother, you really done your best... you really do very well as a brother...

really a brother that i cannot ask for more....

i will hug him before he go...

he willingly to buy a dslr... i don't know if it is a good thing anot...

i need some more time to consider it over...

it's late i gonna to sleep... Good night :)

Creativity maintains the balance in our lives. The more we use our creativity, the more it develops..

Don't remind someone of their bad deeds, cos' it will only bring them down. Remind them of their good deeds, so they'll repeat it again ♥

My Tumblr

2010-07-25T09:32:00.001-07:00

http://funnyman-love-life.tumblr.com/

2010-07-25T09:24:00.000-07:00

i got an idea for this...

i learn one thing from this tasty sweet apples is that...

cause apple aren't very good looking(when things are wrong and bad)

i will change them for you...

i make them sweeter for you...

from a simple apple into these colourful and sweet apples...

2010-07-22T18:35:00.000-07:00

God really love to push to my limit of my patience...
play many big jokes on me...
you want me to learn,is okay, i try...
but you play until so big...
really want to push until i don't give a damn...

Witherl

2010-07-19T07:18:00.000-07:00

I am exhausted.. I am running out of love.. I am withering rose...
there isn't much sunshine left for me..
slowly I realized there are other plants covered me from the sun...
I was left behind.. am I asking too much? if I am..
i was wondering... did you realize i was being left behind? are you willingly to grab me from out from other plants that and give me some sunlight?
i dying soon...

i am sorry.. i really feel very useless...

2010-07-18T08:06:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZgcqijaUxdg
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-AWoZmAxKxg

One of my must do things in life is to go to Argentina and learn tango

World Cup Fever

2010-07-13T11:13:00.000-07:00

Chinese Version of Wave your Flag...

The chinese female singer quite pretty xD

English Version

Spanish version? but it sound nice too...

Arabic version...

I like the waka waka part...

11 july 2010 i got a email saying i got scholarship... wenda well done!!! do this one more time:)

2010-07-10T10:55:00.000-07:00

sometimes i really scare...

for now...

because i really deproving alot for this semester...

i scare i not be able to produce the same again...

this i really have to pick up and go for one more shot one...

focus...

focus till the end...

REMEMBER!!!

but now i really feel it coming this time...

i really cannot lose again this time round.. i am going all out again...

wenda be happy.. cause the only way to look handsome is to smile...

wenda you know you got the most handsome and nicest smile...

just smile... cause your smile can mii dao girls....

2010-07-10T09:52:00.001-07:00

Congratulations! You have been awarded the following academic award(s):

Scholarship - NEC Asia Pacific Scholarship

Merit Award (Year 1) - Diploma in Business Applications

Diploma Award (Best in Year 1) - Diploma in Business Applications

I GOT IT!!!

FINALLYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!

WOOOOOHHOOOOOOO!!!!

2010-06-26T12:20:00.000-07:00

Yeo Wen Da is a happy-go-lucky student at Republic Polytechnic.

A talented joker with a caring heart, he is the prince charming of many girls.

2010-06-23T22:53:00.001-07:00

Those who stay with you at the worst times, deserve to be with you at the good times.

I am tired of staring at the sun

2010-05-31T09:54:00.001-07:00

Back to blogging again...

i am sorry to you all that i am really very busy nowadays..

busy with competition, busy with examinations..

sometimes how i wish there is alot more time for me...

yeah.. busy busy

busy = tired...

i am tired and exhausted..

finally today is the rest day for me...

i slept more than 18 hrs... i am too tired le...

haha.. ya that is all the short update...

i need to work on my pp and assignments.. and i be busy again...

so sorry to let you all wait...

just let you know first...

i try to blog.. but it will be a long time...

2010-05-28T03:37:00.000-07:00

Nowadays, i realized that i become more and more short-temper....

What have happened and got into me?

i really hate this fact about this...

in the past, i wasn't so hot tempered one, i thought i am a guy who is very hard to flare up...

i always bottle the anger inside...

i know i bottle the anger inside wasn't good for me...

i know i might blast out someday if overfilled... i guess even i am blast out...

i think it is also a sign that you have crossed the line...

right now, i guess i just bottle it all up rather than on the spot flare up...

Come on Wenda, bear with it...

Isn't this what you are good at?

Bear and tolerate...

Wenda Look at what you have, and not what you don't have...

If you think that things are not going right... come on..

what are you waiting for?

DO SOMETHING!!!

2010-05-26T09:08:00.001-07:00

A carrot, An egg, or a Coffee Bean

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2010-05-07T07:26:00.001-07:00

Thank GuanYinMa It's Friday

2010-04-15T08:13:00.001-07:00

2010-04-04T00:22:00.000-07:00

yeah..i am glad there are songs in life, because i realized that songs are like describing life every single moments..

every different songs would piece up beautifully in a life...

i realized from this few days, i need a few dairys to records my different parts of life...

so that in future..i am able to read from what i have done in the past..

to push me on..

to spur me on...

like those in which have pictures with scotch at the side and captions...

those kind of old book with yellow and brown dirty looking pages..

For canoe diary i write things like what objective i have to do...

diary for friends, write about what is happening...

diary for myself...what i need to remember

what need to learn...what quotes are there...

diary for myself that things i wanna do.. for example designing my own concept room... from ikea...

Like what lynn said, i dun write other people stories into my storybook...

but i extract some good stuff and put into my...i know lynn at the end of the day, she will have a beautiful story...

wenda make this life worth while...life is just a storybook...

make your diary...

collect each day...write down each day

soon, till each stage...the diary will become a story...

a different story will continue on to next stage...

Diary of loves, Diary of Life...so on.. wenda remember!

2010-03-20T04:41:00.000-07:00

i guess...

i am not as good as anyone...

i don't deserve any good...

Wenda

Remember this...

"DON'T expect too much from others

it will only lead to a bigger disappointment...

Only expect more of yourself...

You Sucker! Why can't you just lock it into your mind?"

just fuck those who dun give you what you deserve...

go find it yourself...

win it yourself...

2010-03-15T09:58:00.001-07:00

Stair Sliding

2010-03-14T23:39:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, some extraordinary people out there...

are meant to be misunderstood...

these people do things that normal human beings can't see...

the normal human beings just take it for granted...

the only when they realized that the extraordinary people do the best and care for the normal people...

is when the normal people reflected on their actions...

I guess it is not the fault of extraordinary people to be misunderstood...

not because of miscommunication... noise ...

barriers...

is because they do extraordinary things that normal can't see it..

just by looking at the surface...

When you know that you are often being misunderstood...

you got to forgive them...

Happpy Belated birthday to I,Myself and Me...

Hais...

As always i should have expect the least...

So sad...

when i expect too much on this day...

there will be too much disappointment...

i shouldn't have look forward to my birthday...

Next year, on my birthday... i will wish that my birthday is a day without sadness...

anger, disappointment and loneliness...

:'(

Hey guys.. i changed my number 81129562..

i am no longer using 97696677..

please send msg or call to the new number.. ty

2010-03-04T09:26:00.000-08:00

2010-02-20T07:47:00.001-08:00

HELLO PEEPS!!

Look at this pic!

Hahahaha....

Funny right? :)

Today, I danced like a rockstar at Orchard. Passer bys came forward to me and took pictures with me.

There are Taiwanese, Vietnamese, China, Korean, Ang Mohs, Japanese ,India and many many more. Although I cannot see their faces, I can hear their voices. Their voices tell me that they are excited and happy to take picture with me.

Unable to see somebody, but you can hear them being happy. Is one of the greatest happiness in my life.

It is all “worth it” to sweat so much just to hear somebody happy.

At the end of the day, I learned something. They met a hyperactive, happy and cute rainbow bear at orchard.

That rainbow bear is me if you are wondering. XD

I will upload the pictures if I got them.

I think being able to try and become a rainbow bear at a crowded area is really not something that you think is stupid..is something that a feeling that you cannot get to feel just at daily life.

Something that you don’t know from outside, but when you are inside its … its… so hard to describe..

This is really a rare opportunity for me… I not asking you to become a rainbow bear everyday… I am asking you to become for just a moment.. it is all you need…

Oh ya, I was in the bear for quite some time… I almost going to faint when getting to the end…

my head was damn dizzy and the bear head was damn heavy...

Inside was too hot and I hydrated too much…

2010-02-10T04:21:00.000-08:00

Though we cannot be together...

i just realized that the time is too short..

we going to seperate soon after year 3.

i just wanna spent the moment together...

cherish this time...

because i feel that the little time we spent together adds on a little differences

if you ever feel like giving up, letting go...

i won't let you fall...

There was this story extracted from a tumblr website...

They have been married for two years. He loves literature and often posts his work on the net, but nobody ever reads them. He is also into photography and he handles their wedding photos. He loves her very much. Likewise with her. She has a quick temper and always bullies him. He is a gentleman and always gives in to her.

Today, she’s being willful again.

Her: “Why can’t you be the photographer for my friend’s wedding? She promised she’d pay.”
Him: “I don’t have time that day.”
Her: “Humph!”
Him: “Huh?”
Her: “Don’t have time? Write less of those novels, and you will have all the time you need.”
Him: “I… someone will definitely recognize my work some day.”
Her: “Humph! I don’t care, you’ll have to do it for her!”
Him: “No.”
Her: “Just this once?”
Him: “No.”

Negotiation’s broken. So, she gave the final warning: “Give me a Yes within three days, or else…”

First day, she “withheld” the kitchen, bathroom, computer, refrigerator, television, hi-fi… Except the double bed, to show her “benevolence”.

Of course, she has to sleep on it too. He didn’t mind, as he still has some cash in his pockets.

Second day, she conducted a raid and removed everything from his pockets and warned, “Seek any external help, and you bear the consequences.”

He’s nervous now. That night, on the bed, he begs for mercy, hoping that she’ll end this state. She doesn’t give a damn. No way am I giving in, whatever he says. Until he agrees.

Third day, night. On the bed. He’s lying on the bed, looking to one side. She’s lying on the bed, looking to the other side.

Him: “We need to talk.”
Her: “Unless it’s about the wedding, forget it.”
Him: “It’s something very important.”

She remains silent.

Him:”Let’s get a divorce.”
She did not believe her ears.
Him: “I got to know a girl.”

She’s totally angry, and wanted to hit him. But she held it down, wanting to let him finish. But her eyes already felt wet. He took a photo out from his chest. Probably from his undershirt pocket, that’s the only place she didn’t go through yesterday. How careless.

Him: “She’s a nice girl.”
Her tears fell.

Him: “She has a good personality too.”
She’s heartbroken because he puts a photo of some other girl close to his heart.
Him: “She says that she’ll support me fully in my pursue for literature after we got married.”

She’s very jealous because she said the same thing in the past.
Him: “She loves me truly.”
She wishes to sit up and scream at him “Don’t I?”
Him: “So, I think she won’t force me to do something that I don’t want to do.”

She’s thinking, but the rage won’t subside.
Him: “Want to take a look at the photo I took for her?”
Her: “…!”

He brings the photo before her eyes. She’s in a total rage, hits his hand away and leaves a burning slap on his face.

He sighs. She cries.
He puts the photo back to his pocket. She pulls her hand back under the blanket.

He turns off the light, and sleeps. She turns on the light, and sits up. He’s asleep. She lost sleep. She regrets treating him the way she treated him.

She cried again, and thought about a lot of things. She wants to wake him up. She wants to have a intimate talk with him. She doesn’t want to push him anymore. She stares at his chest. She wants to see how the girl looks.

She slips the photo out. She wanted to cry and she wanted to laugh.

It’s a nicely taken photo. A photo he took for her. She bends down, and kissed him on his cheek.

He smiled. He was just pretending to be asleep.

“You learn to love, not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.”

After reading this...

isn't it sweet?

got few words that came to my mind.."forgive and give"

...

Enjoying as much as i can now...

who knows you blink one time..

it is already Year 3 le...

blink twice... NS finish le...

So love your time...

love the people you wanna love...

love them hard...

Don't ponder anymore...

Love the one who you love...

Life's too short

too wait...

Life is speical...

Love is a must have...

For me... i just love them...

i don't need them to love me back...

cause i think my life is about loving people...

Look at each moment atomistically, it seen very slow...

but when you look at it hostically.. you will find that life is too short to waste time...

Love the one who you wanna love, don't hesitate.. just go ahead

I support you

2010-02-07T02:07:00.000-08:00

NEVER

give

I realized that my attitude nowadays is never give up spirit...

everything i see..

i see good attributes in humans..

i want to learn to be like them...

for example:

I saw this quote..

Close friend doesn't mean Good Bf

Good Bf doesn't mean good Husband...

when i see this...

i was thinking screw this quote..

some quotes in life are wrong...

i told myself that...

as long you believe...

with the right attitude...

you will succeed..

so i was thinking if i am a good bf...

i will do whatever it takes and learn to be a good husband...

...

i capsize...

i don't give up...

i capsize more...

i remember more things that i want to learn...

even though i cannot change now..

i bring back what i learnt...

and reflect about it and

come back to improve...

Screw mugging people...

you don't need to mug if you got pay attention...

mugging are for people who wants to study hard the last minute..

if you want to do the best...

pay attention and learn...

the last thing you need to do..

is to revise back...

and not mug...

last thing that i wanna say is that

just now..

i was taking nap...

i was dreaming of eating alot of chocolates...

this kind of dream is really at heaven sia...

2010-02-05T07:46:00.000-08:00

Hi peeps...

while i was doing my rj..

i came across this thought of the song

"Open Happiness"

by Coca Cola

The song, the lyrics...

is making you happy...

What a happy thing to do...

So when you are sad...

one thing that can do is to open a can of coke

and drink it...

Love it...

Be happy people...

Like what i say..

i am [HD]

not High Definition...

but i am Happy Davson...

Lyrics:

Well hello is this thing on
Is anybody listening
A brand new day has begun

The first thing that I want do
Make sure that you feel it too
So I'm not the only one

Cmon lift me up (it's a brand new day)
Open up a lil happiness today
So I can be someone new
Cmon and lift me up (to a better way)
Open up a smile on another face
So I can (feel something new)

Open up some happiness
Open up some happiness
Open up some happiness

Ahem*Ahem* let me clear my throat
So you can hear clearly every word spoke
Today I woke feeling lovely
Happiness overflowin knowin somebody loves me
Just think yesterday I was down and out
Now there's not a single thing for me to frown about
And the same thing can happen to you
Smiling so hard my mouth look like a capital U

Oh, I want to have some fun
I want all my friends to come
Cause it's now or never
Learn the words and sing together

Cmon lift me up (it's a brand new day)
Open up a lil happiness today
So I can be someone new
Cmon and lift me up (to a better way)
Open up a smile on another face
So I can (feel something new)

Open up some happiness
Open up some happiness
Open up some happiness

Cmon lift me up (it's a brand new day)
Open up a lil happiness today
So I can be someone new
Cmon and lift me up (to a better way)
Open up a smile on another face
So I can (feel something new)

Open up some happiness
Open up some happiness
Open up some happiness

2010-01-29T08:19:00.000-08:00

Good news people...

i am coming back to blog again...

got the feeling, urge want to update about my daily life...

i want to see all my post as motivations in future...

Yeah...

Last few days... i been through alot of tests...

and i learnt things out of it...

one of the thing that i learnt is that...

i cannot be the one who teach what is belief...

what is the right attitude...

i let other people who is going to step in their life later to do the job...

There is always this image in my mind...

Every human beings will reach the wall/barrier sooner or later...

when the people who break through the wall before..

can see that if you have break thru or still stuck infront of the wall...

Those people who break through can be 2 person... one is give you an advice on how to break thru

another is dun bother and just continue on their journey...

when those people who wants to help them to break thru...

the people who haven't break through and don't want to listen to what they said will have this confirm plus chop reaction...

which is...

anger...

believe me... this is 100% true..

The sad thing about this is that...

they will give you many negative remarks and excuses when they don't want to listen to you..

i know .. i understand why

they will become angry... why give negative reactions...

because i go through it myself...

You People out there don't see things/human just the surface...

See the journey behind them...

Cause the journey what makes them today...

...

can take me as example...

in my primary,secondary school...

my grades, results have been very bad...

all fails...

Until i break through...

things changes..

i get 15points...

but fail english...

but nvm... i break thru one more time...

i get 3.9

Can you see?

Initially i was stupid than average people...

but until having the right attitude...

thing change...

when i mean change .. is really change...

i change from F student to A student...

there will be alot more barriers in life...

but usually the first barrier you meet in life..

will be the hardest...

after that.. you will have no more problems..

cause you understand it...

So what i try to say here is ...

Right attitude change everything...

Listen to those who really want to give you hand...

cause by listening...

you will eventually get it...

That why 5 senses is important to our life...

You see to learn things..

You taste to learn things..

You smell to learn things..

You LISTEN to learn much more things...

Trust me for this point...

cause eventually you will understand what am i saying...

In school you're taught a lesson and given a test, in life you're given a test that teaches a lesson.

Last thing, i wanna do is...

study hard and earn a lot a lot of money...

why do i say this?

Why money?

Because life is unfair...

i am going to be as tough as a stone...

i want to learn money because life is really really fucking unfair...

all you poor people out there just like me... work hard..

work hard for life...

work hard for everything...

i know it is unfair...

but you are going to work hard and earn more money for family...

for other poor people...

for yourself...

2010-01-08T06:54:00.000-08:00

Always expect alot... always made myself lead to bigger disappointment...

The voice in me... told me that

the best is yet to come...

cause in rp...

If i never get an "A" for today's daily grade..

i really got nothing to say...

There is a sudden burst in me...

telling myself that "You all haven't seen the best of me yet"

i just dunno why...

suddenly i got the feeling to put super power in everything i do...

i always concern about the form.. but no power in it...

right now...

i dun care le...

expect the less from people...

expect more from myself instead...

2010-01-06T08:39:00.001-08:00

ever since.. the day i started to learn and understand about life...

is the day.. my sadness accumulate...

i knew myself all along i was a negative thinker

i thought there was this period... i thought that i have become positive thinker

what i see now is... negative thinker will always turn back again...

i thought that all the little sadness will be gone after i was being enlighten...

in the end... it is like a bottle filling up with sadness...

i thought i be fine and never think about it again...

but the sadness still exist because in real life the problem still exist..

when the day it came down where you broke down...

was the day all the sadness was being pour out...

when i thought after pouring out all the sadness...

i be free again... but the sad thing is ...

i dunno why the bottle is being filled up again...

that's why i think i felt sad for myself....

because i pity myself for having all this...

for all this things happened again ... maybe because i am too streesssedd :S

2009-12-28T09:02:00.000-08:00

Tonight was the night, when i see many people was in sad mood...

Everywhere was life sucks...

(28December 2009, Monday)

I guess i have done too much....

i feel that i am such a failure sometimes....

My brother hates his life...

me hate this life...

why am i the best when i am alone...

why cannot i be as best as usual in front of people....

why do i always fails to be best in front of people...

Why do people their very best... in the end they always got put down..

why sadness weight so much heavier than happiness....

2009-12-22T08:47:00.000-08:00

Doing a fast update...

Today i went down to Orchard Road at 10.20PM...

LOL can you believe it?

So late liao .. everybody was leaving orchard le..

yet i was traveling to orchard...

yeah i went late because i wanted to go 8.30pm de..

but i overslept because i am too tired after today's gymming and paddling...

so i woke up at 10pm and rush down...

I rushed down to orchard because i wanna buy num stuff because they are having discounts ma...

Lol i went to hereen 1st to check if they have the party tank..

in the end they dun have small size only got xs and m...

Thanks to cavan for serving me..haha

so i went to cine to see if they have small size...

in the end they dun have too...

And i wanna thanks the RpDb guy(i forgotten his name) who willingly to help me all the way and show me what party tanks they have...

really appreciate it too...

i was like "argh! what should i do?"

(because i am buying for my friend, so i dunno if he/she want the size anot..)

so i decided to go back to hereen to buy the m size...

and thanks to Ben to help me to call wheelock to check they have the party tank too...and help me to call hereen not to close so early ... haha must thank him also...

when i go back hereen..it is damn late already, they close all the entrances...

heng i work in office to send stocks before...

so i know how to get in...

Which is the Loading Bay!...

haha...

then i bought the party tank... thank to the hereen main ic for opening late too..

haha...there are really nice guys i meet in num...

that why num won the best service awards ma...

Now 1.18am leh.. tmr morning meeting javier to get art materials from him...

at the same time i going to funan to send my laptop for repair...

then MaYBE Meet Wan ying to ask her for art materials too..

she is such a NOOB!... ask her dun want to reply...

NOOB! If you are reading this...

"REPLY FASTER IN MSN NEXT TIME!"

Then got training too ... YAY!!! NOW I CAN BALANCE in TIGER LE!!

3 cheers for myself...

That why just now when i came back.. i went (Cheers) to buy drinks..

Since i can balance le.. i should train faster... and paddle properly and pull Harder...

Cause Santa told me to paddle hard in my dreams...

If somebody could tell me what does this korean means, you will know why i love this song

...

노래가 울리면 이제 너는,그와 평생을 함께하죠,오늘이 오지 않기를,그렇게 나 매일 밤 기도했는데

To be able to eat... is really a blessing...

2009-12-07T07:46:00.000-08:00

Hahahaha...

Awhile ago.. i was feeling very sad...

But now i am feeling much better...

I stirred up a conversation in Facebook initially...

but now it have moved to MSN conference...

Hahaha... all i did was just to tag everybody in the picture...

And this fun begins...

Ya...

Noted! A happy event happened in my life....

Awhile ago...

I reflected about my life again...

Today was also a saddest day of my life...

In the morning, i knew i don't have any pocket money left...

so i took 2 slices of cake to school...

I really envy those bitches who can enjoy eating food....

i really pity for myself...

eating just 2 slices of tasteless cake...

and smelling the fragrance of the food from others...

This hunger is signalling me to go back to work again...

I have many things many things to spent on...

To eat happily...

Only working for my own pocket money, and spending it..

then i would feel better and satisfied as it is a different feeling...

but the pocket money given by my family....

i treasure it, i dun even dare to spend it on unnecessary stuff ...

One more thing that made me sad is that...

because why can't i just enjoy what is a life being just a normal teenager and student...

Like what my coach says...

"If you don't need to work, just enjoy and fulfil the life of being a student..

Because after you this you will work for life, until you die..."

why do i have to worry so much on financial stuff when i just a teenager...

Really envy those bitches out there who can enjoy life...

I know i shouldn't think this way...

I should think that knowing my own state clearly, at least i learn to be better person...

shouldn't make my kids go through the same thing as me..

i should work hard...

When i came home, i was totally too tired and hungry...

Looking forward for my mom to cook a delicious small maggie meal for me...

but somethings unhappy cropped up...

So hard to enjoy a meal in this day....

I knew this day would come...

In my mind, there always be a happy event follow a unhappy event then back to happy event...

and the cycles repeats...

before this i was enjoying myself for being able to try K Boats...

...

That why life is up and down...

After each downs, i reflect and learn...

Today i learn that ...

To be able to eat is a blessing...

If you can go thru the same thing as i was....

you would understand why... one meal was so precious...

Cause what if there is no tmr... This is your last meal?..

*in conclude of my post, due some people who don't understand is that...

initially.. i wanted to fulifil my life as student happily

but becuz of my family situation i couldnt

so sad thing is that i cannot fulfil my life as student happily...

So Real , but so sad that sometimes we couldn't see the things in front of us...

2009-11-23T07:08:00.000-08:00

Updates awhile...

I took part in RP biathlon last saturday...

and inside the goodie bag...

There is a Pink Arena Water bottle and purple Pouch...

CAn you believe it ?

Why am i damn suay to get gay colours...

OMG!!!

and a rp singlet as shown above...

I wanna share something that i think is perfectly true in life...

When you ask yourself that

"Why am i different from others?"

...

The probing question is that...

"Why..."

...do you have to be like others?

2009-11-04T03:56:00.000-08:00

Last semester,
My source of motivation came from the regrets that was left after o'level...
Non-stop reminding of myself...

However, right now i seen to have lost that feelings...
The first few weeks of a new semester...
it didn't start off very well...
I been looking for answer and reflect and reflect..
where did i gone wrong...
why did i do so badly for presentation...
That time i felt very depressed and i gave myself too much pressure...
But somehow i know i have to break through this as soon as possible...
"Metaphor"
I started walking very fast...
the road was rocky and slippery...
i search for broken pieces of my rainbow sword...
after the holiday, my rainbow sword was broken and scattered everything...
i need this sword to survive in rp..
without this sword...
i couldn't be able to kill the monster of the day...
along the way...
i found and picked up broken pieces of power..
i put the broken pieces together to make my sword...
still finding...
i walked too fast.. i fell along the way...
but i still not beaten yet...
i know i will make a sword that is 2times level higher than my original sword
(Note: Rainbow sword is already consider the rarest and most powerful sword around the world... It is the top 5% among others...)
If i make a sword 2 level higher...
it is uncontrollable... 2x rarer 2x power...
The story ended here...

To be continued...

The story was about me who had lost all the skills of presentation...
i made mistakes.. i couldn't get A..
i fell, but i dun stop finding my skills back...
and i learn more skills along the way...
improving myself...
improving my presentation by 2 level higher...

Back to my point again...
The question that you are wondering now is ...
"So wenda, now what is your motivation?"
My motivation?
Is working towards my dream job...
My dream...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PwMI1oeQJYc&feature=player_embedded

Yes!
Google

I have been watching many google videos...
i kept my motivation coming...
thinking of how much hard work should i put in...
because i know it is not easy to get in...
they received a resume every 25seconds..
so what make you so special?
that why i have decided to study university...
in order to do that...
i need to get 3.983333333
The following GPAs i going to get...
MUST BE A 4.0....

I already setting my path ...
i aiming it...
I have been told by my brother before..
You must have a dream....
a dream to work towards to...
Take your time to find...
But don't take too long...
otherwise it will be too late...

Now i see it...
i understand now...
most teenagers like you and me ...
still dun have a dream..
not having a dream is very hard to see things that is ahead of you...

"Dream are for you to see things clearly... To see what is ahead of you...As soon as you have a dream... you will wonder why you are so slow in the things that you do.."

Thats all i got to say...
i will share more of google stuff in future...
Tmr is Marketing UT... Wish me good luck !

Looking forward to the day, i shoot like a shooting star

2009-11-02T07:07:00.000-08:00

Tmr is my UT(understanding test)...
Wish me good luck!

there is something i want to talk about today is a comment made by my faci..

very good slides.. quite entertainting. which covers everything..
firstly...this is VERY Very rare.. but i thoguht the slides you guys did were fanastic and to a certain extent its better than what is in the 6th p. do however rem to study the various theories within.
overall i am very impressed w the effort to make it entertaining yet has good depth and coverage.. well done team 1 and enjoy your grades. do note that AGAIN..this is rare and the standards will increase.. so do not expect such grades all the time

this is the comments made for the team...
and many times.. i read the team comments because i felt that it is talking about me...
why did i say so?
because i was always the "Key Man" ( a person who give ideas for the whole presentation)...
That means the whole presentations is my doing...
My presentation is lousy means i am lousy...
if my presentation is good , i am good...
the presentation reflected me...

Ok talking about the comment...
i was feeling damn jia lat sia...
the last sentence says...
"this is rare and the standards will increase.. so do not expect such grades all the time"
By this sentence only...
i know i must gave myself a higher demand than before...
Pushing myself 2 steps higher...
My last sem faci said my presentation is a level higher than the rest...
now this sem faci ask for more than just a level higher...
This clearly shows that i had exceeded his expectations...
...
I told my friend about it...
He said:
"you must constantly not dissappoint him"
This is the word that i wanna hear...

I guess i should do 2x times higher level...
I will not put myself anything lower than 3.9...

2009-11-01T00:08:00.000-07:00

Never thought so hard and struggle so hard before...
Now i see how important to go to university...
In the past, i told myself that i WANT to study in Uni..
because i been to SMU to work there be4..
i walked around the school...
i observed very part of the school..
i observed the students...
i just know that this is the place i want to study...

My rp friend told me that newspaper have published before that
the employment rate and salary for rp are lower than other 4 poly...
he was also the one who also told me that his faci told him that...
Rp is like a pass to enter university...

...
We just need to score well in rp...
and get into university...
This is what we should do....

I just know that i shouldn't made any mistakes...
Now my gpa is that high..
i should hold higher....

Since i am already in this school...
I should take it as a process of sharpening myself and learn things about life
even though that the things we learn in rp isn't everything...
at least i know that we learn something more important than everything
Is about how we are going to work with team...
is not about learning for your own good..
is about teaching my team mates that something that they dunno...

Thinking for the Future

2009-10-18T07:58:00.000-07:00

Somebody should teach me and show me how to change the blogskin...
my garfield blog look so messy...
haiz...

Blogging is a form of writing a diary...
I blogging right now is to write some of the things that i want to remember in the future..
When i came back to this page again..
I wanna to know what is my past...
What were i thinking back then...
What are some of the things i have done, and keep reminding myself..

Firstly, letting you all know about my grades nowadays...
Damn It.. i don't know what has happening to me..
I getting grades like B and C...
Omg if i am going at this rate.. i cannot get 3.8 and above anymore...
I been trying to see where have i gone wrong...
Never mind i take this 2 weeks as a lessons to improve more than a grade A...
I think i should do a reflection Journal For the Week Performance...
Pick up some of the skills that i had lost after 5 weeks break...
Must Pay alot of attention and do quality thinking...
A question must solve with many thinking...
I dun care if it waste time.. as long it get me there..
i know i be fine...

2ndly,
I am in love with lavenders!!
Lavenders Flower... not a girl
Don't anyhow think..
Why?
I don't know leh... i just love the smell...
It gave me feeling of a whole new love and life is about to begin...
The usual image of lavender that form in everybody's mind
is the Purple long shape flower...
If you wanna find more meanings about lavender
http://www.proflowers.com/flowerguide/rosemeanings/lavenderrose-meanings.aspx
...

Ok...
Now is the part the reason why i stay awake and blog now is because...
Emotional Feelings...
I am becoming more and more understand of my family state now...
Last time my father did many wrong decisions...
now he is in alot of debts...
I been blaming so many things...
Living in my life... is a pain
There was once my brother told me...
"Wenda, dun blame for born in such a poor family, right now you
have to think how to act wisely and dun make wrong decisions in life.
Don't make this mistake like your father do...
In future, when you have your own family,
You must not do the same thing to your kids...
It is not your fault to born in such a family...
But you still can change your life..."

WHY? WHY? WHY?

However, i am grateful that i have a caring, thoughtful and STRONG second brother...
And a loving mother...
Talking about my mother, i did many many foolish things...
WHY DIDN'T I TREAT MY MOTHER NICELY?
I already know that my mother couldn't walk properly...
And YET WORK SO HARD FOR MY FAMILY...
And she is old already...
So much worries...
My brother always advice me to treat my mother well...
Always teach me how to be a good person..
Always ask me to Be Strong...
At times, even my brother don't talk about his feelings...
i also can tell that he is also quite sad about his life...

Even a little countryside boy aged 13,
understands a important thing of life,
And He called in to the radio station to share with everybody
something that God share with him...
Although, i not a christian or what...
but this video is good...
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=131994416160&ref=mf

And one more thing is that there was this father...
A very strong and old father...
i not going to compare or what...
i know i should accept my fate...
however, this video is not telling me to compare that
this father is better my...
It is telling me that be a father like him...
Be a STRONG person...
Because I CAN do all things through Him who
strengthens me.

Never complain too much of things in life ....
They are not your faults...
It is like this...
It got a purpose why ...
It is about accepting it , and do it whole heartfully..